Soooooooooo, this is the first weekend where I'll be in social environments ( had annual mtgs last weekend, so I was very preoccupied). I'm a solid 4... And a bit worried about my thoughts/Desires. I will be surrounding myself with friends who will encourage and support me throughput the weekend. My phone # has been changed to help with random temptations. Appreciating anyones thoughts this weekend... Thinking I should wear a red cape to serve as a constant reminder, hahaha. To others, I say... Stay 'Red-y'... For u will be tested soon! Have a great weekend..
Since making this conscious promise to purity, I have noticed the following:
- I have found a ton of people supporting me
- found others who will be making similar promises
- it's been very easy
- I've had amazing workouts at gym! ;)
Made it through a whole weekend!... But I did have an Annual Trainers meetings the whole time, so I busy and wasn't very tempted! Ha.
Feeling pretty good tonight.. I'd say I'm at a solid 9!
This being my first entry, I'd like to introduce myself and share my purpose for making a promise to purity.Background:
I grew up, on my own choosing, to live as a 'Perfectionist Christian'... Believing I needed to live a perfect life according to biblical teachings. I struggled at forgiving myself whenever I didn't do so. Eventually, I turned away as I constantly felt guilty and wanted to relieve the pressure of living a perfect life. These ideals followed me through college, a 5 year NFL career, owning a fitness club, and doing some fitness modeling. I have been involved in several unsuccessful relationships. The constant failure of relationships has disheartened me to the point of believing that any chance at a happy marriage would never happen for me. Consequently, I accepted that idea and have since led a life of mediocrity...settling for superficial relationships. This pattern kept me from any meaningful relationships and ultimately from what my heart truly desires...a relationship with one woman for the rest of my life.Purpose:
It is my intention, my promise to purity, to remain outside of any dating relationship until July 4th, 2011. Obviously this includes any sexual, emotional, mental involvement with another woman. I will reassess at that time, but it is sure to include similar promises. My focus will be on changing my pattern of living/ dating. I plan to focus on becoming a more complete man... A man who a woman will be proud to call her husband. It is my hope that God is preparing a woman in the same manner. One day, when my wife and I cross paths, I pray I am ready. What I need:
Most of all, I need accountability as I am unable to do this on my own. I created this blog to gain support, encourage like-minded friends, and to hold each of us accountable. I will check in from time to time to discuss challenges and successes and perhaps failures as well as read other's posts. I will be brutally honest and ask the same from anyone who commits to this. There are no set rules, I just ask that this blog be used as a tool to better our lives and help each one of us receive the desires of our heart!
That is me, that is where I'm at, that is my heart.
I will also use a scale of 1-10 to describe how I'm doing with all of this...as it's sure to be extremely challenging and rewarding at times. Today, after 5 days of committing to this, I'm at a 7. I excited about my promise to purity, but struggling with confidence that I can actually make it to July 4th.
Many of us have decided to wear a red accessory to remind us of our promise. I wear a red band around my wrist as my reminder, FYI.
Hope to hear from others soon!